Disappearing for a few weeks – that was my way out, my way of putting my thoughts and emotions back in order. My only thought was: I have to get out of this stressful environment. But how? And where to?
Meine Schwester hat mich dann zu sich eingeladen… und… ich bin gegangen. Andere Menschen, ein anderes Zimmer, andere Meinungen und eine neue Art, die Welt zu betrachten. Ich habe alles ganz bewusst wahrgenommen: Ich habe gesehen, gerochen, gefühlt und gehört. Ich habe die Kritiken und Ansichten der anderen aufgesogen, um meine eigenen neu zu sortieren.
I accept who I am, but I have listened to what others have had to say about me. I have often been told that I shouldn’t do this or that, and that things would be better one way or another. I listen – but I always make the decisions about myself and my life entirely on my own.
I have taken in a lot and tried to understand other points of view and perspectives. Sometimes they have been spot-on, while other times they haven’t fit at all. They are simply the opinions of people who have their own experiences and ideas, which often don’t match my own. But it has been interesting to hear them and perhaps take one thing or another from them.
Listening is a good thing – especially when it comes to people who love, respect, and know us. People whom we ourselves value and whom we consider successful in one way or another. I listened to everything they had to say, then sorted through it, took my time to think about it, and only took on board what truly felt right for me.
Everything somehow feels easier now… The atmosphere at home has improved, and the conversations here are better too… and no longer so difficult… I can think more clearly now and make new, clear decisions…
In the end, it was a good decision to go to my sister’s. I came home with a breath of “fresh air”… Things are looking up now!
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